What the Hell Is This?
I don’t want to run another spiritual workshop.
There are enough of those.
Enough invitations to become more present.
Enough talk of awareness.
Enough careful language about resting, opening, allowing, integrating, embodying, deepening.
I’m bored of it.
Not because it is all wrong.
Because so much of it leaves the basic mistake untouched.
You can become very good at spiritual language and still be completely trapped inside the same assumed world.
My body.
My mind.
My past.
My future.
My problem.
My awakening.
My failure to awaken.
The furniture has been rearranged, but the room is the same.
This workshop is for people who want to question the room.
The title is:
What the Hell Is This?
Seeing Through the Made-Up World
That title is not meant to be clever.
It is the question.
Not the polished spiritual question.
Not “Who am I?” dressed up for retreat.
Not “How do I deepen my practice?”
Not “How do I become free?”
But the rawer question underneath all of that.
What the hell is this?
This room.
This sound.
This body.
This pressure in the chest.
This thought about myself.
This life I keep referring to.
This world that seems so obvious until it is looked at closely.
What is it?
Not what have we been told it is.
Not what do we believe it is.
Not what does spiritual language say it is.
What is actually here?
That is the territory.
The workshop will be four live sessions, inspired by Peter Brown’s Yoga of Radiant Presence and the way I’ve been working with it.
But I don’t want it to be a place where we repeat Peter’s phrases.
I don’t want it to be a place where we sit around sounding spiritual.
I don’t want it to become a little club of people who agree about non-duality.
I want it to be a place where we look.
Plainly.
Closely.
Together.
There are not many places where this kind of investigation can be shared without it becoming belief, therapy, cleverness, performance, or spiritual theatre.
This will not be a cosy community.
But it will be a shared investigation.
A small group of people willing to ask the same uncomfortable question and not rush too quickly to the usual answers.
No need to perform insight.
No need to sound profound.
No need to have the right language.
Just ordinary experience, looked at carefully enough that the usual certainty starts to crack.
That is the whole thing.
Not a promise of transformation.
Not a ladder to a better state.
Not another spiritual identity to put on.
A direct, live investigation into the thing we keep calling reality.
I’m planning to run this in the autumn.
Places will be limited, because I want this to stay focused and live.
If you’re interested, you can register here:
No commitment at this stage. It just means I’ll let you know when dates are fixed and booking opens.